Finding my Way Through the Days When my Princesses Are With Their Daddy
What is a mommy alone? I can easily see my-self as a mommy and an only parent. The girls have been thriving since Bearded Daddy left us. Some days have been harder, yes. But the big picture looks better. A calmer, happier mommy with dancing, singing and giggling princesses.
The real pain are the days when the Princesses are with their Daddy. What am I supposed to do? What do mommies do, when there is nothing to do? Who am I, when I'm alone?
I've been doing my "school stuff" on the lonely days. Spent hours with the dogs and horses. Met with friends and taken long showers uninterrupted. Not too bad, one might think. Yet it's devastating. Once you give birth your heart is bound forever. I never seem to feel complete anymore with-out the Princesses. I do feel happy and proud of the things I do alone or in the company of other adults. Yet the longing remains.
There are only a few things that have the ability to tear your soul apart. One of them is leaving your crying children in the care of someone else - even when that someone else is their daddy. Everything in your being fights, your body aches as you drag your feet away.
When there are no children, what's left of a mommy?
When there are no children, what's left of a mommy?
